OK, so we have to recalculate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I am getting traces of mild euphoria, but also “people talking” (most doctors tell me this is a hallucination).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I just have schizoaffective disorder though, even before kratom I had.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Let’s count how much we had today.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Morning: 1 pill green maeng da + 2 pills red borneo (easy && effective)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Evening: 1 pill green maeng da + 3 pills red borneo (didn’t feel like enough)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nighttime (ongoing): 6 or 8 pills red borneo, + 1 pill green maeng da (willing to stop here, but still trying to “figure out” the evenings).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Each day DOES seem to reset.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’ll have my labs done soon (no drug test hopefully–just like health metrics based bloodwork), so we’ll see how my liver’s doing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I think… I don’t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
If I survived all the stuff from before.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But who’s to say I survived.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Maybe I died on the inside a long time ago.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Well, fwiw. Who knows.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
OK, so we have to recalculate. I am getting traces of mild euphoria, but also “people talking” (most doctors tell me this is a hallucination). I just have schizoaffective disorder though, even before kratom I had. So. Let’s count how … Continue reading