I don’t know. I’m feeling fine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was listening to an audiobook.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now I am not.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’ve started paper book reading more, recently.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m studying the ways of Krsna Murti. He has some ideas that resonate w\/me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I haven’t felt a genuine companionship from… more than a handful of people in my life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
One of them was Barbara Guest (a poet). Alice Oswald, too (also a poet). I need to be grounded to reality more. I’m lost in lala land. And reality is simple (as stupid as it sounds). It isn’t this or that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It isn’t this or that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So yeah. The other people on my hand I don’t even remember.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My family is… distant. I think I hurt them too much. My mother wants something out of life that she’s not getting. But at least she has her kids.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m implicitly paranoid that papa has telepathy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
FALSE. He does not. There is a logical explanation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I have hallucinations (from my brain disease) && he probably talks in his sleep or sum shit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What the fuck (do I care).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
SO anyway.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That’s it for now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Learning to close out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Harbinger of doom, roam in la la land w\/me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I don’t know. I’m feeling fine. I was listening to an audiobook. Now I am not. I’ve started paper book reading more, recently. I’m studying the ways of Krsna Murti. He has some ideas that resonate w\/me. I haven’t felt … Continue reading