I feel malnourished\/exhausted.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
These psych meds were destroying me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I decreased my SSRI, over a month and a half, by 20 mg (about 50%).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It’s a heavy reduction. But I already, one week after the second half of the reduction (the second part, of the 50% 20 mg reduction I mean), feel so much better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
SSRIs are fucking dangerous. It’s not safe or healthy to suppress young peoples’ emotions that severely.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fucking pharma. Aye.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bought myself some Method shampoo, WITHOUT amazon prime, ON subscribe+save.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Neat beans.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
&& what else?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
You are great. You are super-cool. You will vibe w\/the ocean, && the wind will sail across your bow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Cats && dogs have an interesting accent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I had to take care of an iguana once, when I was younger.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Animal life is, well, could be better, globally, but is improving, I think.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So there is that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Need to clip my nails.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It’s back to the norm, isn’t it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know why my face is gaunt like a skeleton, but I have belly fat like yuch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I do not believe in “drama”. As my father psychically said recently, All people have the capacity to be good.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This is true, is it not? It is more prevalent in some than others, but it is a general unifying principle of humanity, no?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’ve been reading too much Krsna Murti–you can tell by how I speak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m starting to really nourish my body. SSRIs, being on them, is a profound pain. Fuck. && you don’t really notice until you’re off, or at least the dose is reduced (like in my case).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I think 10 mg will be good for me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ONE of my TWO antipsychotics, I think could be reduced. The evening dose. && the morning antipsychotic is fine. It gets 60% of the work done.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I know all this. Because I am me, && my body is mine, && I can talk to you about it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m (OPTIONALLY) supposed to be working on art or some video game.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I think, I don’t know. I wait too long for things. Or I just don’t know how to fish.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t want to force anything, though. I wholly expect I could, I have the capacity to, play a game session && come out of it feeling miserable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Doesn’t happen, though…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Something about being upfront, eludes me. I am kiss-assy \/ “nice”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Well.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Problems, how to fix them, engineering. Science.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hope NOAA gets more funding next presidency. I’m wondering about radio pollution for sea creatures.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lots to do. But at least I didn’t run around like a squirrel today. What is it, Sunday?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Back to “work” tomorrow. (I’m self-employed not-yet-profitable).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My brother (youngest one) says don’t worry about profit, just enjoy what you do && success will come.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m interpolating a bit, but he knows statistics so he would understand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sorry. The psychological pipes were clogged for a few years, so I didn’t get much valuable journaling in. Here is to catching up, without rushing, soonish.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ayah~<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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