{"id":303,"date":"2026-08-30T01:57:56","date_gmt":"2026-08-30T09:27:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/enceladus-b-type.blog\/?p=303"},"modified":"2026-08-30T01:57:56","modified_gmt":"2026-08-30T09:27:56","slug":"did-i-make-you-saaad-with-discretion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/enceladus-b-type.blog\/?p=303","title":{"rendered":"Did I make you saaad?, with discretion?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

I don’t really know what to say. Everything has been at a loss for so long. I guess some people are genuinely scared of writing, sort of like how I am genuinely scared of trying new things before I’m ready to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I love writing. It’s such a rich medium. && I’m learning some foreign languages (mostly French), and learning new American English vocab words, so hopefully my ability to express myself naturally improves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m glad interesting people still exist, too. There were some folks in the neighborhood I heard, and there was some like, I think they know me or at least know of me, and I was listening to them sort of drink whiskey and enjoy some weed (is there any dignified term for that drug?), slowly. And it was slow, and nice. And I felt involved, even though I was just at my desk in my room (is it immature to have a “my room”?), and it was a shared moment, despite the separation. We were “on the same wavelength”–and they were sort of shadowy, so I don’t even know if they were hallucinations or not. I have a mental illness so either thing is completely possible.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

NEWEIGH.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What do you think?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m trying to be better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do better.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Taste better(?).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don’t really know what any of this means.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But it’s decent to sort of, have comfort. Comfort is super-important. Adventure is also very important. I need both of these things just a tad more, to put it bluntly, in my life, to have a fulfilling remainder of my late 30s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Age is such an illusory concept, too. You feel young, you are old–you are young, you feel old.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don’t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Thanks for reading.<\/p>\n

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