I don’t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Things are coming together \/ along.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know what to say. I’m still sort of digesting a lot. It’s been rough times. Fuck you shit fuck bitch shit blasto bombo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bamba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Llama llama.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know what to say.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It’s been something… or something else.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know what to say.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So it’s my weekend now. Whaddya wanna do?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My mom won’t let me go back to kratom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yes, even capsules.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yes, even with safety measures in place.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Oh well. I guess I will live an unfulfilled life of mediocrity && anxiety with no highs or pleasures to say the least of the feits.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So what do you think?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know. I’d rather save up some money, let mother’s credit cards sort of pay down a little, then she’ll give me a break on rent (like $100-$200 less per month), so then after like a month I can just splurge out && buy a fuckton of good music on bandcamp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I need to tell my brother he can get me music on bandcamp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So much of my personal life’s infrastructure went down over the last fifteen years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Covid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The Ukraine War (yes, I’m Ukrainian–though I live in the U.S. (NOT a refugee (unless you count like, 37 years early a refugee)).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That # might not be accurate, but what the fuck is math, my slaver? My slave driver? Fuck you, maaaaaaath! *raises middle finger at math*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I had a good day of coding.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
DISTINCTLY different from “I had a good day of codeine”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
DISTINCTLY.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I guess that’s it for now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
There were almost no voices today. It peaked at like, 20% intensity, though even thinking about them sort of triggers them (which is also why they tend to get worse once they start).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Midterm elections nov. I will vote democrat, and if there are any Greens running for House, I will vote them (like 1 not even 2 I expect).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know. It’s been… int-err-resting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Are you also into resting?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
That’s nice cartoons.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t have the time this year, but I need like a Rick mask from Rick && Morty. Or I could just save sum $ && wear my werewolf mask. It’s nice && simple. Real fluff!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fluffy werewolves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I can relate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
To the crazy, too.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Although I don’t really track the moon in my day-to-day. Maybe I should start doing that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I already do yoga. And walking. Hoping to jog again some day. Started lifting w\/the help of an app-gym. A gym-app. I have some gear @ home. Basic weights, some other stuff. No like, bench, or heavy duty machines.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It’s been interesting. I did my dad a favor tonight && hanged out in the living room w\/him && mother && worked on some art && poetry. Photography && poetry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
What do you think?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(After cussing you out that bad?).<\/p>\n\n\n\n
…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Duck sauce, I guess.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I guess that’s it for now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Thanks for reading.
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I don’t know. Things are coming together \/ along. I don’t know what to say. I’m still sort of digesting a lot. It’s been rough times. Fuck you shit fuck bitch shit blasto bombo. Bamba. … Llama llama. … I … Continue reading