OK, so we have to recalculate.

I am getting traces of mild euphoria, but also “people talking” (most doctors tell me this is a hallucination).

I just have schizoaffective disorder though, even before kratom I had.

So.

Let’s count how much we had today.

Morning: 1 pill green maeng da + 2 pills red borneo (easy && effective)

Evening: 1 pill green maeng da + 3 pills red borneo (didn’t feel like enough)

Nighttime (ongoing): 6 or 8 pills red borneo, + 1 pill green maeng da (willing to stop here, but still trying to “figure out” the evenings).

Each day DOES seem to reset.

I’ll have my labs done soon (no drug test hopefully–just like health metrics based bloodwork), so we’ll see how my liver’s doing.

I think… I don’t know.

If I survived all the stuff from before.

But who’s to say I survived.

Maybe I died on the inside a long time ago.

Well, fwiw. Who knows.