I don’t need to have such a bad attitude all the time.

I talked w/Gemini just now, && it helped me w/some ideas for keeping kratom under control.

Also how to handle Saturdays.

The rule for me, for Saturdays, is to not explicitly schedule anything ON them (particularly not in electronic devices), but if something is like “every 2 days”, then it will inherently fall on Saturday once every two weeks. So like, keep that task, do that on Saturday.

Do morning routine on Saturdays.

Do afternoon break on Saturdays.

Do evening break on Saturdays.

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One thing that still suprises me–&& perhaps always surprised me–is how much immense effort && strain is required to think for oneself. To think autonomously. There are opinions EVERYWHERE–some w/labels of “Professional (definitely not anecdotal advice!)” some w/numbers next to them called “statistics”.

The individual is nigh over.

So I don’t know.

&& desire is not an all-or-none either-or thing. I think that’s something my Irish friend didn’t get when we were friends in high school. College.

Death.

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I don’t know.

I’m sorry for dumping on the reader. Hopefully you are super-tough && can handle my rough language. I guess that’s one way to describe it–rough && tough.