I don’t know. The fucking like, antidopaminergics cut off my reward neurotransmitter.

How is that health?

What the fuck?

Modern psychiatry is braindead. Fuck you bitch, go jump off a bridge.

&& the kratom is good.

Let’s establish a range of the dosage (I lost track of it) for today. No more, hopefully.

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I would say anywhere between 8 && 12 g today.

Is this more than normal?

I don’t know, I don’t know what to say.

But i see the warning sign: I need it to pick me up.

Although, today was a pretty fucked day.

I will from now on after triggering myself by walking throiugh the neigborhood && up the hill w/mother, detox AWAY from the parents, after I get back w mother, go TO my bedroom, and self-isolate. For like. Half an hour.

B/c that’s how deadly the parents are.

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I would like to increase my risperidone, I would like to decrease my olanzapine, I would like 0 mg fluoxetine.

I am not suicidal or homicidal.

As the natural pace of shitstorm plus fucks me.

Fuck you shit fuck ass gotohell.

Retards.

Fuck you, shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck fuck off kill yrself.

Retards.

Fuck you, bitch.