My mother is there to look out for me. I should not be so mean to her.

I really do not want to be accused of elderly abuse.

&& all this I have, it something.

I think.

…

So what would you say? There are impulses of this or that, && it is interesting.

I don’t feel good. That walk w/mother did something to me.

Decreasing the SSRI is also rough so far.

It will be better tomorrow.

My heart rate is calm right now, though. Which I like.

I don’t know. I will try to play piano on Fridays from now on.

It’s good to have moments of lucidity to see how paranoid I am.

I don’t like the term “delusional” b/c it is often used, or it was, for like, “delusions of grandeur”, or like, a delusional ego, hitting on some lady.

I don’t know.

Sorry for causing you all your problems.

This is bad.

I don’t know why, but it is.

There’s something not right w/my blog right now.

Well.

I guess withdrawal from the SSRI decrease is rough.

I will go to bed on time though.

Which is ~1 AM for me.

&& mom && I are going out tomorrow. I’ll get some coding done @ the cafe.

She wants to go bag shopping.

I guess I shouldn’t die before then.

Or go to a hospital or w/e.

Sorry for swearing so much. I really like swearing. It doesn’t get anything done though, which is strange to me, b/c usually it gets things done.

Oh well.