I’m not sure. It’s strange. You do things… some of it’s waste.

Why is anything we do waste? Why isn’t everything 100% efficient?

I don’t get it.

I’m tired and I woke up early today.

Like, 8:30 AM on a weekday is “early” for me.

I’m sorry for everything.

Anyway.

What do you think? I wouldn’t know.

I don’t really have anything in my brain anymore. This risperidone is good, the olanzapine is what it is (hopefully we can reduce it), && the fluoxetine seems unnecessary. So.

My brain is kind of boggling over the concept of wasted effort right now.

Is it bad? To have experiences that lead nowhere? I’m sure many people do.

Maybe it’s bad to BE efficient. Like the Nazis in WWII. I dunno.

Then of course there’s the warstuffs–Los Angeles/Mexico and deportations; Ukraine/Russsia; all the usual geopolitics that I only have a clue about, and that mostly never really seem to affect me in any way.

California is a pretty mellow place. It’s funny how there can be war somewhere on Earth, and here, it’s just… do your own whatever. Live with your parents, write web apps, post something on yr blog. I dunno.

This febreeze plugin thing I got for $20 is vile. The modern product market is abhorrent. Online shopping is going to make me a homeless man.

Well anyway. Hope it’s good on your side.