I overdosed on kratom a little bit today.

I had like, 2 capsules in the morning, and 3 before heading out again for errands w/mom (I’m hiding it from her, so far–and probably for a while).

I had like 6 or 7 total yesterday, too. Capsules.

Really, that’s too much.

It appears to stay in the system/bloodstream/whereverbodypartsorgans for a while. I would estimate even up to a few days, based on this experience.

&& it IS digested slowly, so like, if you have too much–get ready for dizziness, a bad stomach ache, && just sort of like, serotonin rush (not entirely pleasant).

I feel calmer now. I’m not having any more today. I’m sticking to my green tea (tea, not kratom), and later at night, herbal tea.

Going out pumpkin picking w/fam-fam tomm.

Should be good.

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But something is missing. Something is lacking.

I got both my heart points && step count goals for today. I don’t know. It’s not enough

I guess I could do some yoga.

But my back hurts.

Maybe I should stretch.

I’m so tired of all thisse-ahh horse-shitte.

I don’t know.

The movies mom is watching are super tense, lots of emptiness, silence–some italian producer/directory known for examining loneliness at the time.

I would estimate it’s only worse nowadays.

Oh well.

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I guess that’s it for now.

Sorry for freaking anyone out.

Thanks for reading~