I don’t know. I don’t like these evening kratom cravings. Ideally I just have my dose after work stuff is done && go about my business, entertaining myself or whatever the shit it is the 1st world does when not working.

But the cravings are worse in the evening than in the morning. This exact pattern, however (take dose, go about business–no problems) happens in the morning.

I had 7 pills (3.5 g) this evening, && am disappointed w/red borneo. Green maeng da would’ve been preferred, but I didn’t want to be overactive tonight–I need to sleep on time-ish b/c mother and I are going out tomorrow.

Still paranoid of stalkers. It is completely illogical.

I don’t know.

I’ll try to see what else I can do in my psychological defense. I set a hard upper limit tonight of 8 pills (4 g–the recommended dosage for starters from Mitragaia).

So there’s that.

Yeahp.

Microsoft To-Do is surprisingly good software. It’s hard to find good software these days. I really like its design features. It works well for my evenings.

…

Free time stuff. What woe is me shitty filigree.

Or whatever.