So I think, sometimes, you just have to towel in && say, well, even a heavy dose of kratom isn’t going to fix this.

Sometimes problems are real. Not that social anxiety, mood disorders, && fatigue/depression aren’t real problems (that I sort of use kratom to treat), but I mean like. If all you have is a hammer, everything looks like a nail, right?

So definitely I do not recommend binging on kratom. If it’s an opy strain, it will make you dizzy && nauseous, && if it is a gentle strain, it won’t do much more than a smarter, lighter dose would have done anyway.

Learn from my mistakes–don’t repeat them.

I started reading a book by Krsna Murti, to go along w/my yin yoga practice.

&& I want to go for a nature hike once a week–if nothing else to get away from screens.

Had a nice lunch w/fam.

I don’t know. I’m going to re-dose a little now.

Is it suspicious that I am increasing my dose?

I think, I thought, I would think, I should think, that the noise should clear everything out (the ocean waves on the shore… in, out, in, out…) in the long run provided there are clear boundaries between safe usage && unsafe usage.

I’m trying to employ as many of those boundaries as I can.

So actually, BEFORE I dose, I am thinking (&& as a reminder I had 0.5 g green maeng da + 1.0 g red borneo this morning before going to the restaurant w/fam–helped w/social anxiety disorder about 70-80 %) of re-dosing w/ 0.5 more green maeng da, && another 1.5 g red borneo.

If dosages consistently go up, in my usage, && I find ways to justify them, or it seems “innocent” to me, then that’s a blaring sign the plant is starting to mess w/my head. That is a warning sign.

The ? then is, how to gauge whether the increase speed is bad, or if usage is still responsible or irresponsible.

So far, on average, it seems I need about 3 doses a day–one after waking up (alongside morning supplements && psych meds (not safe for everyone–some psych meds can be intense, as well as some supplements, && adding kratom to that may tip the tanker)), one in the late afternoon is good (3-5 PM), && one at night soon before bed (seems to help w/my sleep? maybe? tentative guesswork).

If each dose is 3 pills, that’s 9 pills total, which is 4.5 g a day for me.

Before bed, I might take just 1.0 g red borneo tonight. That seems enough.

But right now I just need to relax.

So I’m going to go have my 0.5 g (1 pill) green md + 1.5 g (3 pill) red borneo.

Thanks.

Sorry for the imperfect pseudosciency non-analysis of everything. I am actually trained in science, but not medicine (for the most part), so it’s a tough hand of cards to play.

I’m just trying to help.

Best of luck on your side.