Perpetually hacked

This blog is going really well. I am satisfied w/my work, even if indecisive at all the times && shooting of myself in the foot often.

So, deterministic logic is failing me.

I think the enemy (or opponent, or whatever you want to call it) in the system’s philosophy is trying to prove that deterministic logic is false.

It seems self-evident to me that they are stupid, beneath me, retarded fuckshits, and stupid retards.

Having said that, if you ever have a stalker, most likely you won’t know who it is.

I’m not implying that I’m stalkish. I actually stay off social media && “THE DORK VEBB”.

Kratom dosage for today:

  • 4 pills = 2 g in morning (2 pills = 1 g green maeng da, 2 pills = 1 g red borneo).
  • 1 pill @ cafe in bathroom (I have a little emergency pill holder–for both prescriptions PRNs && self-prescribed herbal medicines) of I don’t know what vein, red or green, b/c I dropped the other one on the floor and trashed it immediately (don’t do dirty drugs, hygiene, sterility, cleanliness, disease, common sense–do these words make sense to you?), and the bathroom lighting wasn’t super-bright (I can normally see the color difference between the two varieties) = 0.5 g green or red vein (unknown).
  • 3 pills = 1 green vein, 2 red vein (prior conversions apply, as well) for evening (after taking a like, 3-hour break).

I am starting to feel better. I set up my task list with a SCHEDULE that FITS me! =D

Microsoft to-do is really good software.

It’s hard to find good software these days.

And this french audiobook is… blatant religious trash, and the author is an egotistical prick, but eh, it’s an audiobook. I don’t know why amazon isn’t paying me to listen to it. It’s total shit. Fuck you, ass.

And that’s that.

It’s good to take breaks.

Would I be able to live without water for twenty years? I have an addiction to water.

The rmi got better a little, I just needed a short computer break.

The evening is going alright.

The parents are terrible people.

Fuck you shit bitch ass retard fuckup.

Anything else?

Salsa?

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I don’t know if that’s safe.

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Had 0.5 g (500 mg) green maeng da after dosing initially w/2.5 g red borneo.

Red is very weak/gentle. However it does seem to help w/hormones && neurotransmitters (feeling more “cozy” right now).

The maeng da strain, whichever color it is, I think is very opy. Reminds of percocet, but percocet was prescription, && calmer && cleaner. Maeng da is sort of… dirty, but intense.

I guess that’s why it’s popular.

I still have yet to buy a bag of a 3rd strain, something to mix it up. I’m still learning how to use the basics (one green, one red), && figuring out best practices so that it can be beneficial for health and not dangerous.

I guess that’s it for now. I wish I could have more.

Oh yah! I’ve kind of self-analyzed, and health upper limit is like 3.0 g, && safety upper limit is like 4.0 g.

Good day.

I don’t know. I’m trying to do analog things. Screens are infectious.

Having said that, sometimes it is a good infection.

I don’t know.

I don’t know.
There was something else there.

How are you?

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Oh yeah. How serious and boring.

Do you appreciate lust, or fuck it?

I don’t much do either.

Say here we are. Oh what haven.

What orgy.

What fuckage.

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Was bound to happen sooner or later: it IS a french audiobook.

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If anyone wants to be acknowledged on our Blogroll page, just let us know.

Thanks fucking fucking thanks.

I had like 5 g of red vein Borneo tonight, && it is only now popping up. It really does peak circumstantially/much later than expected.

Also red borneo is somewhat weak. Good if y’re somewhat… I don’t know. I was looking for something faster, more upbeat.

But this is fine, too.

I took it super slow && cautiously w/my evening dose today. I had two green maeng das in the morning, && that was sufficient (in combination w/my psych meds && nutritional supplements).

IS the soil in the U.S. eroding? IS corn horny?

Also yeah, sheer willpower (although I have some) is not a sustainable solution.

So we’ll have to find other safety mechanisms that are less religious/scammy.

slash eyelash

I don’t fucking know. This is horse shit. Fuck you, shit fuck shit fuck. I should panic more and insult others less.

Panic panic panic how cool.

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I hate Gemini. I fucking hate robots. They’re so depressing. And police state. They suck heairy cock.

Shitstorm+. That’s the name of the web app I’m making.

Fuck UC Davis. Ass mcgee.

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Meejee meejee meejee. Fuck you, bitch.

Shit-shut fuck-up.

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What else?

I’M in pain, so that’s nice.

I don’t know what to say. I don’t exercise enough. I’m going to start hiking up the hill across the street &| weightlifting twice a week (Tue/Thur) from now on. Or at least that’s the plan.

The advice to walk every day DOES NOT WORK.

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Die, European.

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What else?

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I fuck you.

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Shitfuck.

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Assniggers.

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Bitch-flying.

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Stupidretardpocalypse.

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Anything else?

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I’m not done yet. I want you incinerated by your clone.

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In a pizza oven.

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Fuck shit.

Fuck shit. Fuck shit.

Fuck shit.

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I don’t know what else to say. I hate fuckshit assbitchniggers.

Bigger tharn the shit.

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Fuck you shit.

Ass bitch.

Die die die.

Shit fuck ass shit fuck ass kill yrself stupid queers retards fuck you.

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Shit fuck ass.

I guess that’s it for now.

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NO just kidding you’re fucking BRAINLESS.

GO TO HELL.

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Retards.

Fuckups.

&& Sluts.

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Bitch dancing. Where bitches dance.

Is a new pop song.

No pop song is new.

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melody.

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refrain from harming yrself. Unless by that I mean exercising (temporary harm to muscles–is healthy).

Hey die.

Retard fuck-up.

Die die die.

Shit fuck ass.

Shit fuck ass.

I hate you.

So much.

You have no idea.

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I hope you go away sometime soon.

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I guess that’s it for now. I wouldn’t know what else to say.

Thanks for reading.

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So what do you think? More else wise?

Or nottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt?

What would you CHOOSE?

For someone ELSE?

Retards.

Fuck shit ass nigger thizz bitch.

Kill yrselves.

Fuck you, shit fuck bitch.

Die die die.

Retards.

I hate you.

You stupid shits.

Fuck off.

That’s it. Give in to that anger, retard.

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Fuck shit ass nigger thizz bitch.

Fuck shit ass nigger thizz bitch.

Fuck shit ass nigger thizz bitch.

DIE DIE DIE SHUT THE FUCK UP or whatever you don’t have to if you don’t want to.

Suicide is optional.

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Anything else?

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B/c lawyers always tell the truth.

Awesome, isn’t it.

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Good income, I guess.

=/

Shit darn

The system attacked me today (again). THere’s a lot of fuckshit in my personal space, manipulative acoustics to “project” things upon me.

Supporting the American Atheists assn, supporting Audobon Soc.

So there’s that.

My parents are very bad people.

The british poetry doesn’t go anywhere.

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Hey fuck shit ass nigger thizz bitch. THis is not sufficient.

My physician (who is pro-choice and as scared of pro-life drs as I am), is recommending we antagonize my psychiatrist (and was neutral about my therapist). My therapist supports this.

I think my psychiatrist was a little… sexist? towards me. A little too romantic. We’ll just put it that way.

Another dipshit feminazi.

And phil day seems to be yung bae, and is total crap.

Some chinks the only english they understand are brainless parroted phrases.

Yes, parrots are going extinct, too.

Better talk a lot.