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Kratom update

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I’m reaching the point that I am stopping counting my dosage throughout the day.

This means I am reaching an intermediate skill level in usage of the plant.

I can estimate from memory @ the end of the day (if I need to) && add the 0.5 g addition (offset) on top to be on the safe side.

Am I addicted to kratom?

Yes.

But I don’t like the word addicted.

Am I addicted to risperidone? Fluoxetine? Olanzapine? Clonazepam?

Well anyway. So there’s that argument, which isn’t given nearly enough light in MD PhD (psychiatric) programs.

I am not addicted to kratom. I depend on it. It is a plant. People have evolved w/psychoactive plants for millions of years. Hundreds of millions of years. I don’t know.

So like, it helps me. It is a good plant. It is an herb. It is a good herb.

I have safety mechanisms in place to control the dependence. But the plant depends on me, too.

It is commensal. Or mutual beneficial (whatever the ecology term is).

So, has anyone considered that it may actually be SAFER to use kratom? For me? Personally?

Do you even know me? My situation? Then how can you know?

You’re not my doctor. Go home.

This is purely for argument’s sake. But it is pragmatic/applied to real circumstances.

So, I would say, have a good stock on hand (few months supply), && if it becomes illegal in some republican shitshow or something, or something happens (shit happens, after all), you have a liberal buffer for tapering off.

I recommend tapering to cold turkey. Cold turkey isn’t always physiologically safe. It depends, of course. Sometimes one is safer, sometimes the other is safer.

So have an exit plan. Just in case.

But for now, enjoy the beauty of this moment.

You have an intricate relation with a plant, from the Earth. This is beautiful.

Enjoy what it gives. The headspace, the relaxation/focus (depending on strain && cocktail composition), the sociability.

I think this is safe, && I am in a good place.

So for now, that’s about it.

Thanks for reading.

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I had some other things to say, but I forgot what.

What was it about?

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I think, if anything, I like red veins more so far. They’re more calming/take-the-edge-off (very gentle/weak, though, compared to a strong sedative). Green Maeng Da was my go to in the run-up, what lead to I mean, my kratom addiction that landed me in a psych ward, prison, etc.

Obviously I also have a mental illness, that was sort of like, correlated.

(But correlation doesn’t imply causation).

I read (past-tense) How to Lie w/Statistics in high school, in AP Statistics.

I really liked that course. Super fun to mess w/numbers.

And the more esoteric forms of abstract probability are fascinating to me.

I am a very technical && abstract mind.

Although strictly speaking, it is disrespectful to an intelligent person to say “my brain” or “your brain” instead of “me” or “you”.

Reading some yoga theory.

I won’t name any names, for the sake of my confidentiality && safety.

It’s like, borderline philosophy.

But it’s a good supplement to my yoga practice. I practice on my own. I do not teach.

That’s about it for now.

Thanks for reading.~

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Physiological baseline

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So, to contextualize my opinions/findings about kratom so far, some basic physiological facts about me:

Am age 30s-40s

Male

Caucasian

Average height, slightly overweight

That’s that.

Now you have the factors at play (in the vein of safety && transparency) when I say like, “oh this worked for me” or “this is obviously an important sub-issue”.

Thanks for reading.~

Kratom analysis && a couple improvements/findings

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Trying to find information on safe narcotic usage on the internet in countries like the U.S. is like trying to use EMBL or NCBI when funding runs out for public health initiatives && FEMA.

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So it is Saturday, for me, where I am, && it is difficult sort of this morning. I just checked in w/my supplement analysis that I do in a spreadsheet, I made it from scratch, like I do w/many things, && I take weekends COMPLETELY off for Kratom.

Recent improvements:

Feeling less guilty/need-to-hide about my kratom b/c hidden in plain sight strategy applied (reused some tea tins to store green vein && a mix of red veins separately, in an accessible location, while long-term storing deep in my closet (“deep in my closet” that’s a good one) the bulk bags–I tend to buy 200g bags, which SHOULD be 400 pills but it’s not like, I don’t know if they use counting machines or what, it’s probably fine). So, more comfortable using DURING usage-okay hours, less “God’s will” manual willpower bullshit in my life on this topic.

So that’s safer. Also. It is safer. Also.

&& then, the supplement analysis (I need to publish SOME scientific findings about SOMETHING somewhere at some point—I have a lot of discoveries that could do a lot of good to human society && nature) said kratom is mildly (w/mild certainty) beneficial for me. This includes confounding factors, as in it accounts for them, && so that’s good.

THE WEEKEND is tough, it is also a shitty band. So yeah weekends just suck cock.

Warm or iced green sencha tea helps me, I’m sure any green tea would work. There’s some residual kratom chemicals in my body system I can feel it, the effects are wearing off, so some of the phytochemicals (I wouldn’t use the word “alkaloids” w/o knowing specifically what that chemical class is && what the word means, that would be abuse of language && pseudoscience–insulting public && my scientific dignity) do have a long half-life, but I’m not like daydreaming or nodding off right now, so it is sort of interesting.

I feel genuinely deeply satisfied that I am teaming up w/a plant, from the Earth, to improve my life in such a significant way. This is a big win for nature && humanity.

Probably other updates.

So basically:

– my own factor analysis says kratom is good for me

– combining hiding w/safety w/o causing too much damage to my own dignity (as happens to many drug users)

– weekends can be tough, but other plants && stuff (like coffee, tea, yummy/healthy food, like entertainment like movies && stuff) got me on the backend, hurrah hurrah.

That’s about it for now.

Thanks for reading.~

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You can modify the skepticism offset anywhere from low to high (I use 0.5 g, 1.0 g is also sort of, standardish I would say), to help reduce (in theory) dependence on kratom, when dosing using [how much you thought you took] + [skepticism offset] = [how much you for all practical purposes assume you took].

This just is another safety measure for anyone using herbal medicines to help w/their problems.

Hooray, hooray. What a sunny differential.

Daily update, kratom, etc.

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I have noticed drastic improvements to my mood && social skills (if you believe there is any such thing)–but NOT something that would be considered abnormal for me personality-wise.

If you can’t tell, I like kratom.

Apparently they are selling liquid extract mixed w/coffee. THAT is wakeup juice + pain medication = ready for a helluva day.

Fuck yeah.

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I think IF you want to track how much kratom y’re taking per day, to sort of monitor addiction, I would recommend just tracking one number: mass of kratom ingested or what-the-shit, consumed, whatever, “topically applied to intestines or mucous membranes”.

So for me, today, so far the morning was 1 g. The workbreak was 1.5 g.

&& the evening so far has been 2 g.

So FOR TODAY SO FAR: 4.5 g.

That is a reasonable dose FOR ME.

Everyone responds differently, && I think the Earth’s socializers (humans && ants) are tipping the scale in favour of herbalism being like, a real thing.

So more information on more plants should be available in the future.

Here’s to hoping, && helping.

Acha~