Daily Archives: 2026-10-24

Brainstorming: hygiene

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I’m looking for better hygiene/healthcare products.

Now that the Earth has in some recent/distant memory some issue of “DEADLY DISEASE”, such as the famous Spanish Flu, I want to live cleaner.

Things like scrubbing in the bath, figuring out how to take baths that DO NOT cause me tachycardia.

Baths give me tachycardia.

That means my heart races dangerously fast.

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I have some clean scrubbers, I’ll start using a fokkin’ pumice stone for my feet && toenails.

We have tea tree oil, but using it daily is like, overkill, which is good–that would solve the problem. But I am so defeated by the end of the day that doing tiny meticulous little things (like were expected of me in the life sciences industry (where I was mistreated (hello (South) San Fuck-Cisco (arbitrary conversion to a Silicunt Valley follow-up)))) in my own benefit don’t seem important anymore.

So I guess, I was not aware I had depression.

I’ve been treated by the American mental/insanity(/inanity) system for over 10 years, && I am just coming to the realization that I may have mild-to-moderate depression.

It didn’t bother me, but it’s starting to.

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I guess Drrmrrcuntfuckyoubitchshitfuckassniggerretardgenocidelasarmasalarmas has a bad eductional ranking on the GLOBEL POSITIONING SYSTEMICS SUPER-RANCKOTRONNe, so I’m stupid.

Thank yee.

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I had some other things to say, but I forgot what.

What was it about?

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I think, if anything, I like red veins more so far. They’re more calming/take-the-edge-off (very gentle/weak, though, compared to a strong sedative). Green Maeng Da was my go to in the run-up, what lead to I mean, my kratom addiction that landed me in a psych ward, prison, etc.

Obviously I also have a mental illness, that was sort of like, correlated.

(But correlation doesn’t imply causation).

I read (past-tense) How to Lie w/Statistics in high school, in AP Statistics.

I really liked that course. Super fun to mess w/numbers.

And the more esoteric forms of abstract probability are fascinating to me.

I am a very technical && abstract mind.

Although strictly speaking, it is disrespectful to an intelligent person to say “my brain” or “your brain” instead of “me” or “you”.

Reading some yoga theory.

I won’t name any names, for the sake of my confidentiality && safety.

It’s like, borderline philosophy.

But it’s a good supplement to my yoga practice. I practice on my own. I do not teach.

That’s about it for now.

Thanks for reading.~

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Physiological baseline

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So, to contextualize my opinions/findings about kratom so far, some basic physiological facts about me:

Am age 30s-40s

Male

Caucasian

Average height, slightly overweight

That’s that.

Now you have the factors at play (in the vein of safety && transparency) when I say like, “oh this worked for me” or “this is obviously an important sub-issue”.

Thanks for reading.~

Kratom analysis && a couple improvements/findings

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Trying to find information on safe narcotic usage on the internet in countries like the U.S. is like trying to use EMBL or NCBI when funding runs out for public health initiatives && FEMA.

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So it is Saturday, for me, where I am, && it is difficult sort of this morning. I just checked in w/my supplement analysis that I do in a spreadsheet, I made it from scratch, like I do w/many things, && I take weekends COMPLETELY off for Kratom.

Recent improvements:

Feeling less guilty/need-to-hide about my kratom b/c hidden in plain sight strategy applied (reused some tea tins to store green vein && a mix of red veins separately, in an accessible location, while long-term storing deep in my closet (“deep in my closet” that’s a good one) the bulk bags–I tend to buy 200g bags, which SHOULD be 400 pills but it’s not like, I don’t know if they use counting machines or what, it’s probably fine). So, more comfortable using DURING usage-okay hours, less “God’s will” manual willpower bullshit in my life on this topic.

So that’s safer. Also. It is safer. Also.

&& then, the supplement analysis (I need to publish SOME scientific findings about SOMETHING somewhere at some point—I have a lot of discoveries that could do a lot of good to human society && nature) said kratom is mildly (w/mild certainty) beneficial for me. This includes confounding factors, as in it accounts for them, && so that’s good.

THE WEEKEND is tough, it is also a shitty band. So yeah weekends just suck cock.

Warm or iced green sencha tea helps me, I’m sure any green tea would work. There’s some residual kratom chemicals in my body system I can feel it, the effects are wearing off, so some of the phytochemicals (I wouldn’t use the word “alkaloids” w/o knowing specifically what that chemical class is && what the word means, that would be abuse of language && pseudoscience–insulting public && my scientific dignity) do have a long half-life, but I’m not like daydreaming or nodding off right now, so it is sort of interesting.

I feel genuinely deeply satisfied that I am teaming up w/a plant, from the Earth, to improve my life in such a significant way. This is a big win for nature && humanity.

Probably other updates.

So basically:

– my own factor analysis says kratom is good for me

– combining hiding w/safety w/o causing too much damage to my own dignity (as happens to many drug users)

– weekends can be tough, but other plants && stuff (like coffee, tea, yummy/healthy food, like entertainment like movies && stuff) got me on the backend, hurrah hurrah.

That’s about it for now.

Thanks for reading.~