Taking more than like, 4-5 pills during one morning or one evening doesn’t really increase the effect very much.
Side note: medical benefits of supplement still there even if not feeling a “high” from it.
There are more creative ways to strengthen the psychological benefits of the supplement, and I am still discovering them.
One is to change the strain you use from time to time. Mixing different strains can produce different effects, too.
Fuck shit ass shit fuck bitch kill bitch die die die fuck off kill yourself you fucking whore ass nigger thizz crazy retards.
Fuck off stupid retards.
Fuck you, shit fuck bitchass. I am going to nail you to a cardboard paper tray and set you on FIRE.
Fucking bitch.
What else is new.
Fuck you shit bitch.
Retards ass-niggers.
The neighbors harass me regularly.
Fuck republicans.
Genocide all republicans. ON EARTH.
Utopia guaranteed.
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What the fuck else is new?
The red vein borneo is actually (combined w/my weightlifting session earlier) sort of calming me down / allowing me to ZONE OUT for fucking once in my adult life.
I was such a happy daydreamer as a child. Just naturally. I was healthy, smart, social.
I don’t know what went wrong.
Now my parents are simultaneously sad, then angry.
My brothers are sad, then angry.
I don’t know.
What is wrong with everyone?
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I think 4-6 g a day is good for me.
I had 2 red vein borneos just now.
These are somewhat more flavorful, complex in structure, && do help relax.
As usual, too many is not good.
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IAMCURRENTLYREADING: Midway, by Kayla Czaga.
Seems I’ve finally settled ’nuff to read a chap(book) (of poetry) (which I really like) (&& like).
feel free to leave a comment / thanks for reading.
I enjoy solitude, but friendly visitors are always welcome!
Some random thing.
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Uhh, besides that, I would say, I’ve had 3 or 4 (I think 3, but I’m scared 4)
capsules of 1.0 g each, green vein maeng da.
It’s starting to ramp up.
I’ve noticed, for me at least, that
there’s an initial psychosomatic (or flavour/scent/tongue/mouth-related–not sure which or whether) excitement, then it goes mellow for like half an hour, then a mild noticement of OK it’s starting to do something but not enough “” (air quotes <–), then like, the peak is actually about 2-4 hours AFTER ingestion.
Healthy && occupational things (like exercising, studying things, playing games) mingle w/kratom usage very, very well.
Also being in the right headspace, in order to actually APPRECIATE the opi-ness of Maeng Da, is super important to avoid abuse/addiction.
So anyway.
My goal for now, the next step, what the dipshit you want to call it, is:
figure out a more sustainable solution to keep dosage from getting too high too fast (too much IS UNPLEASANT–it is somewhat incapacitating / DEFINITELY don’t drive when in that state), more sustainable soln. than “sheer willpower”.
Sheer willpower also hedges on the side of religious dogma / isn’t real beyond actually your neurological activity && physical actions + env.
So there’s that.
A note on willpower/resistance/stalling:
– builds willpower
– not really a sustainable solution
I don’t know.
The kratom is working really well.
Really, really important part: WAIT 30-45 min. after dosing!!
That’s how long it takes for (nonpsychosomatic) effects to start.
Good to stay busy in the interim.
Things like, I shit you not, reading, exercise, listening to music.
REAL LIFE, basically (besides work).
OR, IF YOU WANNA FUCKING KNOCK OUT SOME WORk, GOPHER IT!
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So how are you yutz fuck bitch?
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Anyway. I hope everyone is doing swimmingly.
It’s not a party if it happens every week? Maybe?