Some random thing.

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Uhh, besides that, I would say, I’ve had 3 or 4 (I think 3, but I’m scared 4)

capsules of 1.0 g each, green vein maeng da.

It’s starting to ramp up.

I’ve noticed, for me at least, that

there’s an initial psychosomatic (or flavour/scent/tongue/mouth-related–not sure which or whether) excitement, then it goes mellow for like half an hour, then a mild noticement of OK it’s starting to do something but not enough “” (air quotes <–), then like, the peak is actually about 2-4 hours AFTER ingestion.

Healthy && occupational things (like exercising, studying things, playing games) mingle w/kratom usage very, very well.

Also being in the right headspace, in order to actually APPRECIATE the opi-ness of Maeng Da, is super important to avoid abuse/addiction.

So anyway.

My goal for now, the next step, what the dipshit you want to call it, is:

figure out a more sustainable solution to keep dosage from getting too high too fast (too much IS UNPLEASANT–it is somewhat incapacitating / DEFINITELY don’t drive when in that state), more sustainable soln. than “sheer willpower”.

Sheer willpower also hedges on the side of religious dogma / isn’t real beyond actually your neurological activity && physical actions + env.

So there’s that.