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What I wanted to say about kratom, too, was that it gave me an unpleasant brain fog this morning, so I had to hydrate, eat breakfast, snack on fresh onions, etc. The usual.

So recently, this evening, it gave me a sort of intense daydream state. Reality blending w/fantasy.

That is what it is known for.

And so, I never really had that much of that previously, in my first time using it (which did factually devolve into addiction && abuse (the plant abused me)).

I was always chasing the euphoria properties of it.

But discovering that it can make dreamstate stronger definitely strengthens what films like Inception make it out to be.

(Inception is about opiates, btw).

SO anyway.

Fuck you bitch, shit fuck for free gratuity hate england hate us hate fuck shit countries.

I did my language lessons today.

It’s starting to be habitual.

But like… for a just environmental challenge, something to take me down && make it real.

Upcycling does that.

I’m too tired to even start, though.

So I might reschedule it.

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Some random thing.

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Uhh, besides that, I would say, I’ve had 3 or 4 (I think 3, but I’m scared 4)

capsules of 1.0 g each, green vein maeng da.

It’s starting to ramp up.

I’ve noticed, for me at least, that

there’s an initial psychosomatic (or flavour/scent/tongue/mouth-related–not sure which or whether) excitement, then it goes mellow for like half an hour, then a mild noticement of OK it’s starting to do something but not enough “” (air quotes <–), then like, the peak is actually about 2-4 hours AFTER ingestion.

Healthy && occupational things (like exercising, studying things, playing games) mingle w/kratom usage very, very well.

Also being in the right headspace, in order to actually APPRECIATE the opi-ness of Maeng Da, is super important to avoid abuse/addiction.

So anyway.

My goal for now, the next step, what the dipshit you want to call it, is:

figure out a more sustainable solution to keep dosage from getting too high too fast (too much IS UNPLEASANT–it is somewhat incapacitating / DEFINITELY don’t drive when in that state), more sustainable soln. than “sheer willpower”.

Sheer willpower also hedges on the side of religious dogma / isn’t real beyond actually your neurological activity && physical actions + env.

So there’s that.