~2.5 g green maeng da
~5 g red borneo

sum = 7.5 g kratom

I woke up earlier today && had to deal w/more today, though, so I would expect the dosage to be higher. Also there was a medical apt (therapist–she’s really stupid, && not that professional) in the morning, which is always draining (America’s worldwide famous shit–yes, even in liberal states–healthcare system).

So I would expect like 2 g more.

My daily limit is about 6-8 g.

So for tonight (&& no need to take–most of the time–if body does not say it would help), I should expect 8 – 10 g.

Try to cap it at 9. Basic addiction check.

So yeah.

So I CAN HAVE IF I WANT: 9 – 7.5 g = 1.5 more g, which rounds up to 2 g (4 pills).

Hopefully this coincides meaningfully w/the evening being more under control.

Also I didn’t exercise today yet, so we’ll have to at least do yoga.

I am losing weight, though. I guess. I really like weight lifting. But walking (or jogging) builds travel skills.

Which I, as a stupid wasteful American, do not possess.

So we have some variables to work with.

I guess I should be thankful for the degrees of freedom.

Or some horse shit.