How are you?
Fuck.
This is bad.
I am good at blogging.
What else do I have to hide?
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France is a 3rd world country.
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I’m not allowed to be tired, I can see.
Well.
That is nice.
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Daily Archives: 2026-10-22
Note to self
Make sure you are PERFECT, AT ALL TIMES, for your Soviet father.
As he threatens me
To quote him verbatim: “You were abused, by me, so we need to sue them.”
It is my father’s lifelong eternal calling to drill, && police.
The nearby freeway is yelling telepathically again.
Heil Gavin. Owner of All Freeways to Oakland, && homeless tsar of the universe.
As my father continues to gaslight me && destroy my life.
You are not welcome here.
On your own blog.
The enemy is angry.
They are going to… what now?
Good job.
How are you?
I’m at 7.5 g kratom (red + green mix, primarily red–red itself being a random mix of borneo && bali).
I’ve noticed the bali tends to be more headspacey / vague similarities to the marijuana headspace (awareness more localized && immediate, though not in a sharp way).
Fuck you fuck shit ass nigger thizz bitch.
Don’t finish what you start.
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How are you?
Fuck you bitch.. Fuck you. Fuck you, bitch. Martha Stewart. What a princess.
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Fuck shit.
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I don’t know what to say.
Fuck shit ass niger thit’s bitches fuck-up moronsense.
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Care ful of opium.
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What else could it be? I told my previous employer I had to quit to sort out my depression.
Maybe it was more true than I thought.
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Had thought.
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Head thought.
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Fuck off.
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Big deep enemies.
Gotta kill all dem dose wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhales.
Esses.
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It is not fun. It is hard work.
This is corruption. It is fun. The system is JUST. THAT. FUCKED.
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Enjoy the misery.
lunchtime update
I realized that I have to take breaks.
There we go.
I got some work done on my resume today. Searching the internet was never easier.
And I am strictly trying to NOT plagiarize, and obviously morality && accuracy are important.
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I don’t know.
How are you.
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Boo.
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Who are these people talking that know everything about me?
What strange people.
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Well, it’s halloween. Time to put on a psycho mask.
No need, already got one.
It’s my face.
😉
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Blocked some french server. Obviously w/VPN it’s total nonsense. None-sense would have been an interesting && maybe cool way to spell it, too.
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I don’t know. I don’t know what to do.
Papa needs to see a Dr.
Mama just saw a Dr.
Fucking prolife Drs. Fucking collapse of the healthcare system.
Fuck’t.
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Well I don’t know what to do. I give up.
Time to cut my wrists lulw.
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What ellse is it?
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I don’t know what to say.
How are you?
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I gave up a long time ago.
Then I started trying again.
It’s going better the 2nd time, actually.
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No drugs. Medicines && supplements only.
In the pharmaceuticals industry, in-lingo is sort of like, drugs = pharmaceutical medicines.
They just say, “drugs” and it means medicine.
So there ya go.
Tell that to Tauros.
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Completely I have been ignoring up till now for a while:
astronomy.
Fuck’t.
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I would love to look at the stars. I missed the perseids. We live in a light-polluted area. Industrial town.
Oh well.
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I wouldn’t know what to say or how to say it.
IT. Information technology.
See? I told you I don’t know how to say it.
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The next slump is starting. I can feel it.
But I think taking 30 min – 1 hr on my daily break, actually, to myself, is a good move.
I didn’t know the law permitted more than 30 min for a lunch break. I thought 30 min was the max.
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There ya go.
The death of public knowledge. As we know it.
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Language is easy.
Truly.
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I speak no falsehoods.
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What else would you like? A wooden sandwitch?
Hello. Good morning. I’m tired && I took 2 green pills, 3 red pills, = 2.5 g kratom this morning, after waking up, w/my morning dosage of psych meds && supplements.
That’s the nice part of having a sustainable herbal medicine supply. I’m trying to wake up earlier in the day. Previously I was sleeping in until 2 PM. I’m trying to wake up at 10 AM from now on, except maybe on Saturdays.
The morning perk is nice, especially the weather is getting to wet California fall nowadays. The heat waves were pretty bad this fall.
I hope you’re doing well. I do try too hard, often.
I don’t know. What needs to be done. What needs to be done.
What done?
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Very sleepy right now.
I guess I’ll go get some green tea. Not kratom, just green tea I mean.
Thanks for reading.